Cancer death - Sun Nov 12, 2017 12:56 am
For the past week I've been moody, of course sadness.. but I've also been angry, so angry.
I haven't felt this anger since my dad was so stupid drunk he almost lit the house on fire. Every time I think about my friends passing it feels like someone is taking my heart and squeezing it so hard it's about to burst. I guess I'm angry that life has taken someone so young who had so much to do. He was 22! He got cancer when he was 19!! I just..
I feel like a terrible person for not having talked to him since we were close back in Junior high (I'm 21 now)
I had been watching his battle for 3 years but I never wanted to be that person that is like, hey now that you're dying lets talk???
Last night I tried sleeping but I couldn't, I kept thinking about him and it just rushed over me that he's actually gone. I'm going to the funeral tomorrow, I'm so emotionally drained just dwelling over this for a week.
Feeling also selfish for talking about me so much.
Re: Cancer death - Sun Nov 12, 2017 4:15 am
Sorry to hear that.
Life happens and people drift apart because different interest, different life style etc. so don't be so harsh on yourself.
It's not selfish to talk about yourself so much you are going through a hard time and you need to talk! Bottling it up is not good ether. When you go there cry! Cry as loud as you can and want cause i'm sure there are others want to do that. Talk to people! Just go up and chat.
And after the funeral you will still feel down, and feel empty but that's because your old close friend is gone. Time will make it easier when you think about it.
And one thing enjoy life for and make it good for yourself and him!
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Re: Cancer death - Sun Nov 12, 2017 4:28 amOnline
Allow yourself to feel grief and other emotions.
Blaming yourself won't get you anywhere, but it's natural to feel a rush of emotions when stuff like this happens. Don't bottle them up.
I'm sorry to hear about you friend *hugs*
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Re: Cancer death - Mon Nov 13, 2017 7:01 pm
Thank you guys...
Re: Cancer death - Mon Nov 13, 2017 9:06 pm
I'm glad that the funeral has helped with closure as well, and that you were with friends and able to enjoy their company in such an emotional event.
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